i guess we survived another hurdle.
actually im not sure whether the whole prob is solved yet.
cos there are q a few implications..
im worried bout our frenship.
bout how ur frens see me.
bout pissing u off again.
bout being overly affected by all this crap.


all i can say is tt this thing definitely came at the wrong time.


i hate being alone now.
being alone makes me think and think and think.
i felt like i totally wasted my 24 hrs ytd.
wanted to drown myself to sleep in the morning
when my kind ct called me and totally disrupted my slp
and i was kind of forced to go sch despite the fact tt i may faint anytime.
ok and i slept thru all the lectures today.
i've nv once slept liddat b4.
usually i always make it a pt to make myself semi conscious.
but today in the audi..i slept for 1 hr straight..slept like theres no tml.
whoa. sleeping rly helps.
becos when i wake up..i noe tt its time to deal with reality.


i dunno wad the hell is happening.
is it the changes in the pple around me?
is it the stress i have to endure for the dance tonight?
is it the worry of being retaining tt is making me worn out?
is it the assurance to my frens tt they will be alright?
is it the worry bout my frens' problems?
is it not being able to go for my cls bbq for the nth time this yr?
is it the feeling of being left out?
is it his hu leng hu re attitude?
or maybe its just myself.


i guess i've only got my family, cousins and dancers who are really willing to lend me a listening ear to all my crap. they have never once neglected me and im thankful for tt. :)


nvm i will endure.
4 days with no news at all. omg i wanna cry.
this feeling sux.


actually why am i worrying so much.
when i get back promo results next week
and enter poly next yr..
i wun be seeing these pple around anymore.
i shld start collecting poly brochures and stuff.
ngee ann's gd though :)


2-3 months more to next yr.
i juz wanna have a beautiful ending to my jc life.
so tt i can get on with life
and get to know more frens.


yep. so to everyone.. juz endure me for 2 more months.
okay 2 months..everything's gonna be ok le!