wow. im on the verge of retaining and my mum juz came in to scold me cos i forgot to wake her up on time while i was crying on my bed for the past half an hour.


being retained...alone...is not tt great.
i bet no one in class gives a damn whether their classmate is gg to be retained.
and now tt prac all of my classmates are safe from being retained..or even able to take h3 subjs..
it rly hurts esp when i see other classes' blogs where classmates are encouraging each other..and giving support to those pple who may get retained. wheres mine? prob all tinking of which h3 subj to take ba...
even my v good frens in class couldnt care less bout how i feel now.sigh nvm.i shall force myself to accept this fate..tt i brought upon my ownself.
i tink i suck. expecting the whole world to at least be a little concerned bout me.
but after all..im juz a small little person out of the 1000+ pple in the whole cohort.
im so bu zi liang li larh. wth!!
and my most beloved bro liying is safe from being retained.
leaving me alone to fight this battle myself
and some pple juz have to add salt to my wound
and making me break down again.
the only confirmed thing is tt
im gonna drop physics to h1 (assuming tt i will be promoted)


after accepting my new curriculum..
there are q alot of probs to face..
like how to face up with not knowing anyone from physics h1 class.
and learning the new stuff tt is diff from h2.
the possibility tt i may not end up with a good teacher like RQ.
being drifted away from my classmates.
yeppp. sigh. i hope im strong enough to overcome all these.


why does life suck so much?


i tink this hurdle is preplanned by fate..to test if im able to overcome.
becos of it, i've already been mentally and emotionally exhausted.
but i guess i will come to a solution eventually.


tnx for those who actually cared for me.


and tnx to the special u who hurt me when i needed u most. i dinnoe me being retained could mean so little to u tt all u can say is tt u will miss me. i tink this hurt me much more than the fact of being retained.u may cry over this, like wad i alr had. i dunno. but sometimes u cant take back injuries tt had alr been done. im damnnn disappointed. sighhh.