i tink today's practically the suay-est day of my life.okay not so kua zhang. 2007.


i went to sch, still feeling sick and drowsy.
then early in the morning.. need to write some essay. gosh.
and my brain was totally blocked.. so i guess i can only fail this essay again :X


and then physics spa. omg. rly dun wanna talk bout it alr.
its like the worst i've ever done..
and i cant believe i flunked part of my A levels juz like tt.
in tt little 1 hr.
with nothing productive done.
left with 10min to draw tt screwed graph.
and 1 min to write those screwed comments on the graph
when my graph was not even properly joined.
and when the teacher was checking my experiment..
i literally trembled okay. and everything juz died on me.
my face was so damn red. and my mind blanked diao.
was on the verge of having a nervous breakdown by failing my chem A levels SPA.
and i have a feeling the teacher was tinking..
how can one person be so dumb to screw up such an easy experiment?!
yeahh..tts me :)
gosh. i muz be the dumb-est in the whole world.


then then STILL feeling sick and SUPER down cos of physics spa..
i still have to try surviving thru 2 long lectures..
but seriously..i wasnt rly listening..but still brooding over the stupid spa. :X
and finally after sch...
and i have to drag my long, reluctant footsteps all the way to salt centre for dance.
and i have to try to get my brain coordinated with my hands and legs
to learn all the new moves as fast as possible
and i have to deal with the embarrassment of running throughout the whole dance
and knocking into almost every single person in the dance.
and doing all the actions like 1 beat slower..and making the whole dance look so messy.
yepp simply cos i dunno where im standing cos i was sick and din go for dance ytd..
omg. i rly tink i shld juz quit syf larh okay.
its been so long yet i still tink im unable to grasp the wei dao of the dance..
and im so lagged behind due to my back injury and sickness now.
and most imptly.. i rly dun want to slow down everyone else's progress due to my own lagging..
to tell the truth.. i rly dreaded the dance session today more than anything.
cos im so damn physically tired and my head was already spinning..
while i have to try to rmb all the actions..
and fake tt im okay.. when obviously im not.
it doesnt feel gd to lag behind so much for an impt dance like syf...
and force myself to catch up.. with my physical limitations.


gosh. life rly sucks


a screwed A LEVEL spa is enough for today.. not to mention a screwed dance session when i seriously did not dance properly today cos im seriously too sick to tink of anything other than gg home right away.



LIFE SUCKS.


and tml got gefang.
but im okay with it larh.. :)


seriously how i wish i can juz shut myself from the outside world for like one day.
and do my own stuff. im really missing the dec holidays..when i can wake up evryday to eat lunch.. sleep watch tv.. go online..and then sleep again.


2007 - new yr.new beginning.NEW LIFE.
cos im not living life at all..
but rather life is living me. =x



juz wanna sleep all my troubles away...




and tinking of feilunhai..is like the only thing i can do now to distract myself from all the screwed up stuff today..
left hand. left hand. left hand. :))
p.s yall shld see my chem reaction kinetics part 2 notes. omg. get a shock man. HA.



message....
zhiyang..dun sad. u're linked alr. :)
and tnx so much to aud(liting loves audry too!), june(updates on flh too), joanne, ruihong(for the calls and smses), zhiyang (for the touching blog entry too. heh), guanchiang, tonglei (for hosting me at ur hse too), kaishi, qiwen for lending a listening ear to me all the time! :) so glad to have u guys around :)) and im starting to miss eunice! hope u're doing well in aust! reply me with a tag if u see this okay! :)