ahhhhhh
need to vent my frustrations here!
cos theres seriously no one to turn to at this point of time.


IM damn STRESSED.
emotional stressed.
and its just so tiring to put up a false front and pretend that nothing has happened
so that pple around me wouldnt get worried.


the biggest problem with humans is the constant desire of finding faults in each other.
why is everyone so fake?
why is everyone having such high expectations of each other?
why is it that u muz be absolutely perfect just to please everyone out there?


its just so tiring to live up to the expectations that others set for u.


just be yourself. just be true to yourself. just ignore what others say.
those were some of the advice given by pple around me.
i noe i shld be doing that. but its just so difficult.
prob i've been in the safe comfort zone for too many years..
and i've been quite lucky all my life to have gotten to noe all my good frens who are true and sincere to each other.
i guess its time for me to face up to this ugly side of people.


im going to learn to adapt.
so so so going to!!!!!


will i be able to find a true friend here?
or am i going to live life all by myself for the next 3 years?
i hate loneliness.


its 2am now. is there anyone in the hostel who is still awake..and willing to take a short walk with me outside now????
im bored.