1 week ago, a friend asked me sth q private in front of everyone on the dining table.
i wasnt very happy and that was not the first time he made a such a personal comment.
so i decided to let him know so that i wont have to deal with this kind of awkward situations again.
and so i did. told him what i really feel and hope that hist wont repeat itself again.
he's definitely a nice guy, just that sometimes he tends to be abit too insensitive.
after tt incident, i realised that he seldom talked to me.
and everytime i talked to him, he will reply in like one line and changed the topic and talk to other people.
and he mentioned that he's very scared of me.
i really dont know what to do to restore the friendship we had previously.
and i even regretted telling him what i feel bout his personal comments on me.
but then again i dont want to face up with any awkward situations again.
and when i talk to him on msn,
he ignores me most of the time.
(not like he always reply me when we're still on good terms last time.. but this made me v worried)
maybe he's really busy. but it really makes me damn moody when i wanted us to just sort things out and restore the friendship we had before and he's like really ignoring all the convos.
and things that i ask him about..he would rather reply to my friend instead of me.
and im very tired of that already.
have to admit that i was in a very bad mood for the past few days cos of this.
i really still treat him as a gd friend, someone that i can disturb and me being someone he can disturb..like him imitating all my usual phrases and the digusting thing he made on my bday.
i just didnt want him to make any personal comments or qns bout me in front of everyone.
i miss all the laughter.
and now. we're like barely on talking terms.
yesyes it's my fault once again.
for letting him noe that i dont like the personal stuff tt he say.
but i think he might have mistaken my meaning and thinks that i dont like him disturbing me and all.
i just didnt want him to say personal stuff tts all.
ahhh..
i shld have just forget bout the whole incident and pretend nothing happen.
facing awkward situations is better off than losing a friend.
and now this has to happen. and its killing all the mood i have. rahh.
im just so unhappy with myself.


i was very happy when my friend told me that he was the one that left bananas at our doors.
cos at least this shows that our relationship is not as stiff as like really gone case that kind.
but he's still not talking to me.
sometimes (very rare) we have short casual convos..
and tt day he still asked me if i wanted bbt..
but still the whole thing just didnt feel as natural as before.
oh well. i really dunno what to do already...


i need a hug, badly.
i really hate having to deal with such friendship stuff.
just like how much i hate losing a friend.


i really hope that im thinking too much.